note: da jia men, can just ignore this post as after reading through it again, i realise that it is kind of incoherent. ya i think that's the correct word to describe it. haha

i feel so good now. not because i did a lot of work today, or i was productive or anything, but because i talked to rina for so long! after chinese sia, during which after the work assigned to us by dorothy before she went off, we spent time talking. and it is such a nice feeling to just talk! and after chinese sia, which was at like 5 oclock, rina stayed back for like almost 2 and a half hours to talk.

its so nice to talk lor, and after that there is like a wonderful feeling. and whether it was like talking about other people, or like what we felt about certain things, or whatever, its like i could be so honest. without thinking about what she would think about me after that or what impression she might have of me.

i hope that i can reach at least that standard of friendship with 304. obviously not the whole class la, but those we are like my friends. in 304 there are some who are 'friends' and some who are 'classmates'. i guess after like only half a year i cant expect to be like close to everyone in 304 right. maybe when we are in sec 4, it can be like it was in 206, where almost everyone could be considered a good friend...

i dont think anyone will know what i am talking about la. and another thing i realised is that some people just keep their feelings to themselves! even when our friendship has reached the stage where in my opinion we can talk about anything, some people will still decide not to say anything. maybe it just takes time... and i realised that behind a lot of *ahem* events that took place last year, there were actually a lot of things going on just that most of us didnt know about it.

and another thing. it is not easy to maintain friendship. last year in 206, i used to think that even in sec 3, we would be just as close. then i notice it's not true. its so sad, remembering how close we used to be, all the times spent together... like when there was like practically the whole class walking together during cross country. haha. and qw and lh were like wondering why we were taking so long. but things like that just add on to the wonderful memories. this year who is going to walk through the whole cross country with me?

maintaining friendship really isnt easy lor. as in like dont even need to talk about 206, but like this year's friends, like rina and i go around with different people during recess, and during class we dont exactly talk much. its only when like today, she decides to stay back and talk, that i realise how long it has been since we last talked like that. and the best part is that our friendship is like so close that even after not going around during recess or talking so much for so long, we can still just sit and talk like it was just continued from our previous conversation although it was like so long ago.

oh and i just noticed the existence of friendship problems this year. before, i knew there was such a thing, but i really didnt know what kind of problems friends can have. until a few incidents, which luckily did not involve me, it just happened to some people and it was when i knew about it that i realised that im lucky such things have never happened to me.

aiya i just hope that the

friendship

with my "new" friends will become as good as that.