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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
i feel like crying.
dont like the feeling of finishing reading chem textbook, understanding what they are talking about after MUCH difficulty, then attempting the questions in the textbook (which are normally easier than normal) and realising that i have no idea how to answer the question. most unfortunately, my brain is unable to absorb and understand a totally new concept called the mole concept, which is so irritatingly confusing because there are so many conversions here and there and i barely even understand what im reading, in just like two lessons!
my thoughts are getting incoherent. must be all chem's fault!
i just woke up from like sleeping for almost an hour by simply studying chem. for some mysterious reason i am particularly tired today and in no mood to study. physically and mentally tired. so tired that i fell asleep halfway through reading chem, while the piano teacher was talking to kiki and natnat was playing the piano like horrible enough to just pass or fail her exam.
and i dont feel like continuing reading chem, im on the verge of not-caring, and why do they have to test qa again?! we were tested on it before (and so many innocent brain cells were killed in the many attempts to memorise it), and i happily forgot everything related to qa. and now it is tested again.
i really think im going to fail chem. and bio too. bio SEEMED ok. i knew what the questions were talking about but who knows? maybe my phrasing/explanation has like serious problems. maybe no one will understand my explanation and i will just get a huge red cross and a big red egg.
and physics is like... i knew what i was doing. or so i thought. maybe it will turn out that i was like using wrong formulas or something like that and get marks minus-ed everywhere. ih is like... i dont expect myself to do well anyway. 60% is good enough thank you very much. my sbq skills are like so terribly i think the teacher might just faint reading the first paragraph. and i didnt even have time to finish it and ended up sacrificing one whole source to complete my incoherent and not-well-written conclusion. not that i could possibly have written a good conclusion even if i had an hour more but still...
maths is the best please. i felt that other than the function and graph transformation questions, the rest were ok. and even for the function questions... other than like 1 part of question 3 which i left blank, i ACTUALLY THOUGHT i knew what i was doing. but after hearing the horror stories regarding maths results, im starting to doubt the chances i have of passing 60%. so what if i did fairly well for maths test last term? worksheets and quizzes pulled it down like almost 10%. and that doesnt even mean that this term's test marks will be of the same standard.
i just want to faster get back maths paper! but guess what! we have amc tomorrow first thing in the morning! how wonderful. it just means that 1, we wont be getting back maths tomorrow, and 2, my brain might not be in correct working order for chem test. i shall just be glad that there is physics (*ahem* i hope we get back physics test) and recess in between.
and during recess i am 100% sure that the classroom will be like almost full. sure got like 3/4 of the class sitting there studying for chem test. it just adds onto the stress and pressure lor. i shall just not care about using that last half an hour before chem test to study. unless no one wants to go eat recess with me... haha. i just hope i pass chem. 75 is a bit... too unrealistic considering the fact that i really do not understand mole concept.
the only subject that i have a remote chance of not failing is LA. my expo marks are satisfactory... but who knows how badly i will do for compre and summary and unseen? oral might pull me down though. i have like made 0% participation in all presentations on emma. its like i dont know what to say, and even if i do, i dont dare to say anything. im not one who does well in oral presentations anyway, especially those of oral discussions and whatever thing.
oh and i didnt bring my harry potter book home. but thats a good thing right. then i wont be distracted. haha. actually im not very addicted to the book. i'd rather listen to that nice beautiful song of the dance that miss chan taught yesterday. haha. which reminds me about the fire of passion. ms chan was talking about it yesterday. and i noticed that at the bottom of my blog there is the phrase 'DANCE; where the passion burns' that qianwen put there which is so meaningful...
reminds me of mr chan. haha. i think it was yesterday or the day before then i have no idea what he was talking about then he said something about burn the homework. then "carbon is good for food. *pause* poisoning." haha
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